A Cruel World....

My baby found out early how cruel this world could be.

If I had listened to the advice from the cruel world I wouldn't be a mother. I wouldn't be watching my baby recover from heart surgery because "she was gonna die anyway" remember? So what was the point of operating.

The point is that GOD has his hands all over her. He designed her the way HE wanted her to be. He picked me because HE knew I wouldn't listen to the advice of the world and kill the blessing that GOD had in store for me.  He was preparing me my whole life, but I didn't know it. It's only now that I am able to reflect back on different signs that he's shown me along the way, but because I wasn't aligned with him I wasn't able to recognize what he was trying to show me.

If I listened to the cruel world I wouldn't be able to say that my faith has gotten stronger because of her. I wouldn't be able to enjoy her laugh, her smile, those BIG OLE eyes, those clenched hands, or rocker bottom feet.  Yesterday, I looked into her eyes and was mesmerized by her beauty & the beauty of her life. As I rub my finger across the incision on her chest I can't help but be thankful and reminded that GOD has control and has always had control.  He has had control over my life since the beginning. He had been waiting on me to allow him to show me all the things he has in store for me and Mylah.  I thank him for being so patient.  Each day I am reminded of how powerful and loving he is. How forgiving he is.

He continued to breathe life into lungs that were written off as junk just because of an extra chromosome. He continued to pump blood through a heart that was deemed useless because of a few holes. No matter how long Mylah has on this earth, it's one day longer than the cruel world ever gave her and it's all because of HIM.

So today I Thank HIM, for his love, his covering, his understanding, his patience and for being sovereign. I also thank him for continuing to allow my daughter to bless my life. I thank him for keeping her here 4 months longer than people said she would be here. I thank him for leading us to where we are today. There is nothing to hard for my GOD.

‘Ah, Lord God! Behold, You have made the heavens and the earth by Your great power and outstretched arm. There is nothing too hard for You.  
Jeremiah 32:17 (NKJV)


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