Filling in the Gaps.....
I understand that Mylah’s diagnosis has probably scared a lot of people. They aren’t really sure how to react to the news. People aren’t confident in what they should say. This situation has made it hard for most people, but it’s hardest for Juwan & me.
During this trying time I’m leaning on the LORD for strength and I’m so grateful for the supportive people that he has placed in our lives; my parents, friends, co-workers, & other families who have been down this road before. When I feel like my strength is weakening and I begin to get sad, GOD sends these people in at the right time to lift me up.
The other day I was kind of down, a coworker called me and stated that she had been reading the blog. She said that the music mixed with the blog entries had brought her to tears so much that she was almost late for a doctor’s appt. We both laughed, but she doesn’t know how much the laughter I shared with her lifted my spirits that day. I knew then that I could still remain strong & continue this fight.
Another young lady, who attended the same high school as me has been the source of tremendous support & encouragement these last few months. It’s so funny because when we were told that Mylah had Trisomy 18, we were assured that she would die. I immediately thought of her. She had been through a tragic situation of her own and in that instance I knew I needed to speak to someone who had dealt with losing a baby.
Most people say; “I understand how you feel” or “I understand what you’re going through” when really they cannot relate to your feelings or circumstance. During times like this it’s comforting to lean on someone who has been where you are. I contemplated reaching out to her, but she & I only knew of each other. We never had a conversation or socialized in the same circle of friends so essentially it was like reaching out to a stranger. I had to be careful with my approach because death is a very sensitive subject that is handled & processed differently by everyone. I wasn’t sure if I would be overstepping my boundaries and the last thing I wanted to do was cause her additional pain or ask her to go back to a place where she wasn’t ready to discuss especially with someone who she probably hadn’t exchanged more than a “hello” with.
To my surprise she beat me to the exchange. She contacted me on Facebook & ever since that day she has been giving me encouraging words & support. She’s helped me so much & I don’t think I will ever be able to express the gratitude I have for her.
GOD has been placing people in my life during this time. I know that some people are only in your life for a season. In THIS season I’m finding that some people who I consider good friends haven’t actually been there for me like I thought they would. However, where they haven’t been HE has sent others in to Fill in the Gaps and I am forever thankful.